+7K in October - PermaTilt

As you guys have noticed I had a terrible 4K downswing in the end of October. The first three weeks in Okotober i had a sick run and was up 9.5K at the peak. But sudenly I hit the wall. I ran awfull several days in a row. I was able to hadle two losing days in a row but when I lost the third day as well I totally cracked. I was permanently tilted the rest of October and played hyper agro. When i played a game I wanted to crush my opponents skull with a baseball bat instead of playing solid poker. One day I lost 10 buy ins to a fish bowl by playing that way. Of course i ran insanely bad, however even tough i ran terrible i would probably have saved about 1K aganst that fish if i played more controlled and solid. Again, it was not enough to just beat that fish, I wanted to crush him, like 3xing every hand and c-bet pot, and when he finally makes a stand I got pocket kings pre flop and I 4-bet shove all in BOOM!!! FATAL DESTRUCTION!!! ...that was how I was feeling and thinking...

So how is it even possible that an experienced and consistenly winner like me get in such a retarded mental state?

The reason is that i got spoild until late October. I won pretty much every day and every session and was up 9.5K after the first three weeks. That's a better run than ever so I was feeling higher and more confident than ever. I had forgotten how to deal with consistently bad luck and BS.

So my expectation about the future was flawed becuse of my insane good run the first three weeks. It was surprising and disappointing with several days without making money. Thats why i went on permatilt and lost 2-3K more than I probably would have lost if i were able to accept and deal with the bad run without tilting. So in the future i have to be aware about that even though i'm winning every day several weeks I gotta excpect and accept that I might experience several days in a row with bad luck.

Anyway I did end October with +7K which is fine. If I manage to improve my game and my psyche I should be able to make a lot more in the future.

Now i'm taking a break from FullTiltPoker. In Noveber I will play at i-poker with the handle thomasny123. So far this month i'm up 2.5K there, mostly playing the 200s. I got 60% rakeback there which means I get 6 dollars in rakeback from every game i'm playing in the 200s. Thats 6K in rakeback every month if I play 1000 games. I will try to play about 600 games there this month and evaluate my total profit included rakeback in the end of the month. It might be more profitable to play there compared to FullTilt because of the huge rakeback.

Now, lets not forget PrimordialAA's appearance at the World Heads Up live championchip. Some days ago I was reading about the championchip and the live streaming in he's blog and it was cool that he some hours later got interview live. It was an highly socially skilled interview and it was fun that your name got mentioned like every hour later in the broadcast. "We are hoping to get Bryan Pellegrino for more commentaries later on" etc. Great publicity for HU sngs generally and for HUsng.com spesificly.

Hopefully live HU tournaments will become more populare in the future. I look forward to join this tournaments. It's a fun game, and if you got the skills, psyche and business smartness it's guaranteed richness in the long run.

Later, thomas.